I grew up in an awesome and closely-knit family of 7. I am the third of 5 children. I have 2 sisters and 2 brothers. In my precautious mind as a child, being the middle born meant I was hidden or sometimes overlooked. It also meant that when there was an extra piece of ‘sweet’ (candy) it was either given to my elder or younger siblings and I was forgotten. I felt like I was not counted in for any special privileges. I had 2 elder siblings to respect and 2 younger siblings to take care of. Fitting in was so difficult for me!
Amid my sisters, I felt like a square peg in a round hole and an ugly duckling. My elder and younger sister were taller than me. They had long black full kinki hair, while I was a tiny and sturdy girl with very short hair that often-had lots of valleys. They both enjoyed reading novels and watching movies, while I never enjoyed both activities. Therefore, that meant that they always had stories to talk, debate and disagree about. I, on the other hand, I loved creativity. When I was not busy making dresses for my dolls or rearranging the flower vase in the living room, I would watch my sisters in intrigue as they enjoyed conversations about characters from their novels and movies. When I got bored, I would drown myself in domestic work or try to wreck some havoc somewhere around the house to get the attention of everyone.
For the most part, I grew up with feelings of being over looked and irrelevant. The storyteller in my mind from childhood hunted me into adulthood! It told me I was ugly, no one would like me, and I would always remain an insignificant spectator. It also told me I was dull, and I would never have any good contributions to make. I believed it for so many years. During those years, my self worth on a scale of 10 was less than zero. I was a firm believer of the narrative of my mind’s storyteller. The more I believed this demeaning and false narrative, the more I felt worthless, made very ill decisions and looked for love, attention, affirmation and acceptance in all the wrong places. However, when I finally had an encounter with the love of God I had to learn to confront and silence the old storyteller in my mind with the Word.
Who is your storyteller? What has it been saying to you from a young age? Your narrative from child hood may be very different from mine or similar. For years, you may have listened to a narrative from a storyteller that told you that you are unlovable and would never be the chosen one or amount to anything. You may feel invisible and insignificant because of a rejection from childhood or a painful breakup, abuse, abandonment or divorce. Right now, the storyteller in your mind might be saying that they left you because you are not good enough. Maybe just like I did, you have settled for the believe that you are worthless and can never make any useful contribution. Your story might not be close to all of these, but you may have been entertaining the narrative of a wrong storyteller in your mind which has been causing you to feel forsaken or forgotten or rejected because of the current state of your life or situation.
Lovely one, no matter what our unique narratives or storytellers might be, it is high time we debunked the old lies and let God become our storyteller and His word our narrative. By salvation and redemption, we were chosen and adopted into God’s family. Romans 8:16-17 in the message translation tells us, “This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?” God’s Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who He is, and we know who we are: Father and children. And we know we are going to get what’s coming to us—an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we’re certainly going to go through the good times with him!”. “We are joint heirs with Jesus! We now belong to the royal family! We have access to everything in the kingdom! “We are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession.” (1 Peter 2:9)
Just like I did, I encourage you to confront any negative storyteller in your mind! Enough is enough! Serve it a notice! You are now saved and redeemed, it is time to silence the voice of any storyteller that is speaking anything contrary to God’s will for your life. Sometimes, the storyteller may be fed by the words of a family member, friend, or a colleague/boss at work. It’s time you arose and held on to Romans 3:4 “let God be true, but every man a liar”. You can not stop people from speaking or avoid certain environments or individuals, but you can guard your mind! (Proverbs 4:23). 2 Corinthians 10:5 tells us to cast down every imagination and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God. Do not wait till that negative storyteller becomes a strong hold; confront it before it even thinks of speaking. Daily, intentionally and constantly confess God’s Word. Always say to yourself:
I am healed
I am Blessed
I am wonderfully and beautifully made
I am God’s Beloved
I am Royalty
I am chosen
I am the righteousness of God
I am highly favoured etc.
I wanted to caption this post “you are chosen” but when I began to write, I realized that whatever God says we are, we most times know it, but we often cannot receive or believe it because we allow the voice of the negative storytellers drown out the voice of our heavenly Father. Every negative storyteller seeks to attack different areas of your identity in Christ. For me it was my self worth; that is why I always constantly and firmly confess that I am chosen, and I am the beloved of the Father. For you it might be a different area. Whatever area yours might be, I dare you today to arise and intentionally evict any negative storyteller from your mind and make God your only storyteller and His word your narrative. Thank you for reading! I love you! Stay firm in the Father’s Love! ❤
“Before I shaped you in the womb,
I knew all about you.
Before you saw the light of day,
I had holy plans for you…”
Jeremiah 1:5 (MSG)